my night dream

hye allz,,,,,,,

miss u so much,,,

now is 4 am,,

n i still not sleep yet,,

ntah knape tetibe ajer aq rse cm nk mnulis..

dlm blog aq nieyh..

huhuuhu...

kdang2 aq rse aq epi,,,

but kdang2 aq rse sdeyh sngt2...

aq epi ble aq ad ngan org yg aq syg,,

n aq akn rse sdeyh bile aq pkir bpe lme agy aq akn leyh hdup ngan dye....

wlu ary2 aq ad ngan dye,,,

stiap kli tulh aq akn rse epi sngt,,,

siyes,,,

sangt2,,,,

tp bile aq balek,,,

aq akn tnye dri aq,,,

knape msti aq balek,,,,

mcm mne law aq tydo,,

then aq da x mmpu ntok bukak mate lagi,,,

how!!!!!

aq takot.,,,,,,

aq xnk jd cm2,,,

yess!!!

aq taw,,,'sape aq ni nk ubh tkdir....

ntah lh....

tp lately ktorang mcm sllu gaduh aje...

aq yg trlampau mnje..

atau dye ad prob...

kdang2 aq rse cm aq ni da x leyh nk bgurau ngan dye,,,

dye pown cm da start lupe kt aq..

x pon just feeling aq aje kowt....

ummm enouhg wif my love,,,

now psal khidupan as a student,,

hummmm..

x bnyk beza,,

cume bile da bulan pose nieyh,,

aq jdi lteyh sngt2...

da jd balek saket lme aq...

insomnia..

x leyh nk tido mlm,,

2 yg mnjadikn aq lgi x leyh nk ytydo mlm,,

dgn ubt lagi,,

cucuk lagi,,

x lrat kowt,,

untunglah,,,

ad esagment wt pneman kn,,,

hahahahahaha....

owh ye,,

psl mmb klass aq..

dye org still sme...

kdang2..

k;etah downg buat aq rndu pde sorang insan,,,

the only 1,,, adik yg bukan adik aq,,

nur fatin fathonah binti nazri,,,,,

aq rndu dgn dye,,,

dgr kte dye kt aadk,,

alah fatin,,

ko nix serik ke ap..

ko x syg kt aq ea,,

ko da lupe jnji kite ea,,,

ummmm

x mo2,,,

kite kn da besa,,,

beware syg,,

jge diri k,,,

syg kaw,,,,,

my new kind life....

hai sumer...

rndu kowng.....

agk2 nye knape ea..

umm msty ae sbb da lme x citer2 kt sni en...

ari nieyh cm ad bnyk citer aj nk citer....

first bb nk citer psal kkak angkt ksyang bb..

bb bwu ajer pas bcer blog dye...

OMG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

know y??????????????

coz bb x sngke dye still wt sumer 2..

bb engt mser zman skul ajer..

mati2 engt dye da brubh,,

n 4 my sis..

chill k,,,

x smsti nte dye x bleh brubh,,

mse dye ckp yg dye x wt 2 msty ad sbb knape dye ckp cm2..

mybe dye x mo saket aty u sis...

n bb taw yg dye still syg kt u sis....

x mnkn ad bnyk kbtulan kn,,,

but 8vrything kt tgn Allah...

bb always be wif u sis....

second is about my life...

da lme x citer bout my life en,,

ye lh,,

yg paling latest pown duk citer psal bb n my fiancee da broke up right,,

engt x bb pnah tlis,,

was theres some1 that can replace his place?????

yeszzzzzz!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

ad!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

wow epi sngt2.....

and his name is FAIRUL EKMAL......

sape dye...

dye adlh my new bf...

my new star....

but 4 this tyme..

i become more carefull..

y????

coz i dont want its happen again,,,,

klau leyh bb nk ini jdi yg last,,,

4 ever n ever..

but evrything is going on HE.......

we have 2 accept what ever HE give 2 us,,,,

cos whar ever happen 2 us..

havetheir own reasons......

just going 2 us,,

how we want 2 take it..

either bad or good...

hopefully is going good for us right...

setkt skang ni,,

dye msih lgy seorg HUBBY yg baek,,

cewahhh!!!

hehehehe...

ktorng same2 nkal,,,,

sme sengal...

dye matang...

n stakt nieyh dye berupya ntok tnjukkn yg dye mmpu ntok jage bb...

Alhamdulilah...

syukur sngt....

cume bb ksian kt dye,,

yelh,,,

kami sme2 x mewah,,

tp bb da biase hdup mewah dlu,,

sian dye..

tiap2 ari kne bgy mkn kt bb,,

bb pnah ckp kt dye,,

x pyah..

tp dye kter dye nk blaja take care bb,,

agk sweet ae,,

tp bb kraskn aty x mo trpedye lbih awl dgn jnji mnis,,

bkn x prcye,,

cme as a woman yg da pnah kcewa,,

buatkn bb pkir yg slagi kiter blom kawen jgn suke2 nk ltakkan spenuh kprcyaan trhdap boy...

mybe 75% until 90% ajer kowt...

n after marriage bleh naekkn jdy 95% kowt...

but depens,,

sbb bb x mo ble bb da kecewa nnti,,

hati ini akn trluke trok,,,,

bb kne kuat.....

anywayas...

im really hope that this relatiopnship can be going as far as a star on upstairs,,,

wahhh,,

ap lh yg bb ngarut nieyh.....

kowng sumer doakn bb k,,,,,

aq sdeyh...

ummm dye sudh tnglkan aq,,,
sgale prasaan syg aq pd dye,,
sudh dye ptus kn...
msty aq akn rndu dye pbgil aq bucuk pasni,,,
sumer skali..
ummm wt aq akn jd rndu pd dye,,,
sngt rndu,,,
tp hdup msty dteruskn,,,
walaw batin aquh mati namun zahir aq akn ttp hidup,,
biarlh org tgk aq gmbire,,
biarlh phit khidupn ini aq teln sndry..
akn ad lg kh llaki slpas ini dlm hdup..
yg mmpu mnjdi sprty dye,,,,
x mungkn ad..
yg boleyh gnti tmpt dye,,,
krane dye adlh dye..
ary ni aq akn mulekn hdup baru,,
aq taw rmai yg akn kutuk,,
tp aq pnt berpure2,,
aq akn jdi aq yg dlu smule...
aq mngaku aq x kn pkai tudong dye,,
n aq taw jgak,,
aty aq x kn ttup mcm 2 ajer..
 1day aq msty akn pkai tdong alek,,
tp ble 2,,
ntah ae kn,,
haha,,,,
aq syg kowng sumer...
mmuuaaahhh..

sye syg kt awk k,,,,

uk,,,
awk taw x syer ni syg kt awk,,
tp sye x leyh nk g taw kt awk,,
sbbb sye ni mlik owng laen,,
agy pown sye tgk awk ni cm da tblah 2 pder syer,,
1 part mcm ske sye..
1 part agy cm x ajer...
huhu....
sbg cntoh,,,
ble sye skit awk nmpak cm rsau sngt..
sye epi..
tp kdng2 2 awk wt cm x nmpk sye ajer..
lahhh nper ni,,,
ap ae yg kaw da wt aq nieyh,,,
smpai aq jd rndu pd kaw ni,,
YA ALLAH..
tlong ae aq..
jgn smpai aq lper sper aq...
jgn jdikan aq mnusia yg lpe dratan,,
lper dri,,
lper pder siaper yg sllu mmbntu aq slmer ni,,,
engt niat aq dtg sni..
cme nk blajar..
dan ntok awk,,
tlong jgn wt syer cm tgul kayu,,
awk pngil syer dkt awk,,
tp lps 2 awk brsronok ngan pompuan laen kt dpn syer,,
engt syer ni x dew prsaan ker,,,
nk ngis pown ader gak ni,,
owh shit,,,,,,,




mohamad aizal,,,,
maaf kn syer,,
syer syg pder awk,,
syer jnji jge relntion kter ni ,,,

no sorry 4 you!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! shit!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

ummm mmg it was a bad days....
aq yg slah ker...
aq x knl dyte..
aq x pnah sbujt nme dye..
aq x pnah bckp lngsung ngan dye,,
smalm 2 ae ptame kli aq cbe nk bckp ngan dye,,,
2 pown sbb aq cme nk bkwn,,
bkn hnye ngan dye,,
tp ngan sumer skali k,,
suma dak dlm klass aq tuh,,
hum ,,,,,
tp dye kter aq cme blakun ajer..
sorry??????
blkun????
tp blkun ntok ap..
aq conuse???
sbb aq sllu saket ker???
tp dye taw x???
x adew sper pown yg dlm dnia ni nk saket,,,
lgy2 saket yg mner 1 ary nnty aq akn hilang 1 bnde yg sumer pompuan laen ader....
x dew sper pown yg leyh trime ble org laen da boleh mramal kmatian dye???
knaper???
knaper??
yes!!!!!!!!!!!!!! kjnaper???
knaper msty aq yg saket....
kalau lah aq taw the answer..
kalau lah....
dye taw x??
yg sumer trjadi ble aq brada di ats,,
taw x cmner saketnyer bler kter trpkse lpekan ap yg kter sker??
ble kter kne elakkn dry kiter dry wt bnd 2...
aq da hlang dry aq taw x...
aq dlu akti sngt2...
aq maen bola baling..
tringt sweet mmries kt srwak,,,
tp sumer 2 cmer tnggal mmries ajer..
there is no more sport 4 me,,
4 ever n ever,,,,..
aq da ilang my life,,
my future....
my sunshine...
taw ap yg aq rse ble tgk owng laen boleh besukan??/
aq rse x GUNA sngt!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
taw  x knaper...
sbb dlu itulah aq,,,
hdup aq lbih bnyk dgn bola n padang...
lbih bnyk di luar rumah....
lbih bnyk dlm hutan....
i'm outdoor gurlz!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
kaw rser aq x nk ke balik sumer 2???
klaw aq leyh ptah alek wktu,,
aq akn ptah alek...
aq akn jd mcmn ap yg aq impikn..
n mybe..
skang ni aq da bersme ngan mira, kila n nina,,,
aq leyh futher sdy dlm course skan,,
or spm aq x lingkup..
hnye sbb aq amek spm kt ats ktil kt hosp?????
WHAT THE HELL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
WHAT THE FUCK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
maaf law sye berksar...


p/s: x adew sper yg mnta utk jdy sprti aq k..
nobody..
please jgn ckp cm2....
aty aq saket sgt,,
lbeyh saket dry aq tjatuh k,,,,,

ntah nper ntah!!!!

ari n i tetiber ajer aq nk mnulis...
umm x taw ap yg aq rser skang ni,,,
weell aq kn x pnah ader diari..
ini ae satu2x nyer tmpt ntok aq mnulis...
aq sdeyh kowt.,.
aq trpndng jri aq,,,
aq saket..
jari aq da hmpir x dew klit..
mgglupas trok..
law orng tgk..
msty jjik ngan aq,,
kuku aq smkin meruncing,,,
jari aq skit ngt2x,.,,
aq nk ngis,,,
tp aq x mo roomate n housemate aq rsau ngan keadaan aq nieyh...
kdang2 aq malu bler,,,
aq x leyh nk bsuh pnggan,,
ea ae,,
kte da mkn,,
pas2 owng laen lak yg kne bsuhkn pnggan ketr...
aq mlu sngt2x..
tp doktor ktyer aq eletgik ngan sabun,,,
aq nk tngn aq alek,,,.
mcm aner aq nk bdpan ngan owng laen,,
aq malu,,
rmai yg sngke aq ni sombong,,
tp aq bkn sombong,,
aq malu dgn keadaan diri aq nieyh.,..
aq x smpurne cam orang laen,,
aq sering dpertikaikn,,
kdang2 mak aq pown smer..
sumer x ham aq..
umm mybe ini feeling aq ajer kowt..
sper agy yg leyh fham sesoramng 2 law bkn mama dye sndry en,,
mama,,
sory,,, along miss u,,
bler ae agknyer aq nieyh leyh shat kn,,
aq tringin nk jdi cm orang laen,,
aq tringin ke padang semula,,
maen lgy,,
tp aq takowt aq x mmpu,,
aq mmpu kjer..
azam aq nk maen kt pdang thun ni,,
tp mcm aner bler x smpai half game aq collapse agy,,
aq sdeyh,,
aq nk ulang kjayaan aq dlu...
law dlu aq leyh maen ntok ngru slangor,,
maen smpai jdy penjring terbnyak bola baling,,
knper skang aq da xleyh..
aq taw rmai yg mmndang aq tn sblah mter..
mreka anggap aq x brgune..
ya!!!!
mmg aq x brgune!!!!
aq da x mmpu lagy...
aq bkn aq yg dlu.,..
aq bnci dgn nme pyka,,. riena,,,
aq mhu anis,,,
anis yg lincah,, aktif lagy...
bola adlh tman aq...
aq tydo dgn bola,,
teringt mser ader kt srawak,,
playing 4 national,,,
1 of my sweet memories,,
arghhh!!!
everything was change,...
i miss it..
so much,,,

alamak!!!!! x leyh tydo,,,

huhu,,
aq x taw ae nper ngan aqmlm ni,,
x leyh nk tydo,,
mybe aq tlmpau bnyk pk psal aq ngan cyg aq kowt,,,
ea ae,,, rlationship ktowng en,,,
but 1 thing mlm ni tdy aq ader bcer novel,,
n its make me rmember something about my ex,,,,
umm mser 2 aq duk kt pom1.. ala bebudk agy en,,,
bwu 13,,
n aq taw mser 2 aq da gtal nk syg kt a boy ni,,,
yeah,,,
first skali aq smbang ngan dye mser 2 orentasi,,,
ktowng kne amek singature all fcy ae en,,,
umm so nk d jdikn cter aq amek sign ntok sumer fc gurlz n dye amek sign ntok sumer fc boyz,,
haha,,
2 ae pmulaanktowng,,,
after that ktowng jdy mkn rpat,,
tp x declacare ag,,,
rmai yg da ckpktowang da cple..
tp lom agy sbnrnyer,,
haha,,,
nk d jdikan cter aq ader sowng akak angkt,,,
so sllunyer law aq nk jmp dye kt skolah,,
aq msty ajk akak ni tmn kn aq,,,
so ktowng be3 da jdy rpat,,
dye pown pnggil akak aq akak..
humm nice en,,
biase ae,,
law duk 0stel aner der enpon en,,,
so hnyer srat n bku ajer ae modal ktowng nk bhubung,,
ary2 msty ader srat..
n aq still engt cmner tlisan dye k,,,
senget,, hakhak,,
n aq taw yg dye mmg ader maen bku ngan akak aq 2...
but as sster ae en,,,
n then blerdaa kcoh 1 ostel yg dye maen bku ngan akak aq tuh,,
downg quit...
dye promise kt aq da x nk daa,,
akak aq pown,,,
dye kter dyte syg kt aq,,
x mo tgk aq sdeyh2 ag,,
ea ae..
aq tspit kowt mser 2...
antre akak n dye,,
aq taw law downg btol da ad pper..
aq snggup bralah,,,
sbb aq syg kt downg..
sngt2..
ummm tp x lmer pas2 something happen,,,
ader 1 akak ni,,
1 klass ngan dye,,,
mybe akak2 x taw prob ktowng,,
dye bg 1 bku kt aq..
dye soh aq bgy kt dak llaki 2...
kter nyer dry akak aq,,
n aq mmey trkjut,,
ea ae,,
kn downg da jnji no more boom between them,,,
tp aq kter uk,,
t anis bgy k,,,,
ary 2 jmaat,,
aq engt agy..
coz dye j jnji nk antr aq g kt bus,,,,
so mse tgh ary sblom g klass,,
ea ae aq pom 1,, dye lak pom2..
ktowng blaja tyme ptg,,,
akak aq 2 pom3..
pgy,, jdi tyme 2 akak aq da alek daa,,
uk bbalik kter k,,,,
aq duk kt klass aq,,,
aq kliru,,
cewahhh!!! kcik agy,,,
umm aq bcer bku 2,,
ap ajer yg downg sembang..
sumer aq bcer....
aq sdeyh,,
akak aq syg dye,, n dye pown,,,
mksud nyer downg typu kt aq,,,\
dlm bku 2 pown ader tlis,,
jgn smpai aq taw,,,,
knper!!!! typu!!! aq!!!!
aq diam,,
bku 2 aq smpan,,
aq ngis,,,
aq x msuk klass,,
'kli prtme aq bcinte,,
n dye hncurkn kprcyaan aq.. argghh!!!!
setan!!!!
aq tgu smpai ptg,,
n ptg 2 dye antr aq g kt bas,,
bnyk sngt dye ckp ngan aq,,,
jgn lper mcj n bagai ae,,
aq dgrkn ajer,,
smntre aq tgu bas,,
aq tnyer dye..
"abg syg kt kak bella ker??"
dye kter x?? nper anis tnyer cm2??
aq ckp nothing,,but aq ngis,,
aq mmey syg kt dye sngt,,
dye tnyer nper aq ngis,,,
aq diam ajer...
smpai aq naik bas n smpai kt umah,,
mser ary ahad,,
akak yg bgy bku kt aq 2 kol,,
dye tnyer,,
aq bg x bku 2 kt dak 2..
aq kter mmey nk bgy,,
tp x smpat.. t aq bgy ae,,
so esok nyer aq ajk ae abg ngan akak aq 2 jmp kt kepci,,,
huhu...
aq taw downg tkjut,,
sbb aq x inpom pon yg ajk dua2 skali,,
tp x per..
smue nyer cm besa,,
downg still agy nk typu aq,,
mser aq tnyer,,
ap orsaan downg law kner typu,,
downg kter msty ae sdeyh,,
agy2 ngan owng yg downg prcye,,,,
aq tnyer dowang ader typu kt aq x,,
downg kter x adew,,
then aq kuar kn bku 2 n aq tnyer ni aper??
aq x mrah,,
downg diam ajer,,
mser 2 bwu downg ngaku,,,
tp downg x taw nk g taw cmner kt aq,,
agy dak boy 2...
dier dyam ajer..
ok,,
aq kter ckup..
aq x ksah law downg bcnta,,
tp jgn typu aq,,
slami ni ap yg budak laen ckp psl dye,,
aq accept,,
dye playboy,, bnyk pompuan,,
x pew,, aq timer,,
bler dye x shat aq crik ubat,,
bler akak aq saket,,
aq snggu jge dye kt blik dye..
1 mlm aq x tydo,,
n ini blsan downg kt aq,,
sbuah pnipuan,,
owng g aq syg typu aq..
aq x pnah syg kt ownglaen..
even prents aq.. cmner aq syg kt downg aww..
pergghh!!!
memey dasyat ae,, kn...
sjak dryu 2 aq x pnah prcye lurfe 2 aper...
but when aq da taw aq saket,,
n now aq da owng yg syg kt aq,,
aq crik dye alek,,
n nk taw x??
dye x engt pown aq ni sper,,'kak bella 2 sper,,
dye da brsme ngan owng laen,,
aq engt dye eppy,,
tp ntah ae,,,
mybe ni bnefit aq blah dry idop dye kowt,,
aq x lgy rser sket aty,,
luke aty aq semboh daa,,
n law kowng nk taw,,
pas aq mam kepci ngan downg 2..
bkak skolah aq tros pndah g kt skolah lae,
aq taw dye pown pndah skul laen,,
n akak aq pown da pndah ikot prent dye,,
\till now aq x taw aner akak aq 2..
\n dye..
pas aq jmp dye ary 2,,
aq nekad da x mo jmp dye,,
ckup ae skali ahje,,,
haha,,
klaka enn,
tp kowng taw x aq ngah nagis ni,,
aq x leyh lupe ap dye wt kt aq,,
ap dye ckp kt aq..
yeah,,
nobody can 4get their first lurfe en..
aq pown,,,
ntah ae...
haha..
mter yg x mo tlelepa.. huhu..
bye.. daa,,yg pnting aq da aizal,,,
4 ever in lurfe.....