no sorry 4 you!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! shit!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

ummm mmg it was a bad days....
aq yg slah ker...
aq x knl dyte..
aq x pnah sbujt nme dye..
aq x pnah bckp lngsung ngan dye,,
smalm 2 ae ptame kli aq cbe nk bckp ngan dye,,,
2 pown sbb aq cme nk bkwn,,
bkn hnye ngan dye,,
tp ngan sumer skali k,,
suma dak dlm klass aq tuh,,
hum ,,,,,
tp dye kter aq cme blakun ajer..
sorry??????
blkun????
tp blkun ntok ap..
aq conuse???
sbb aq sllu saket ker???
tp dye taw x???
x adew sper pown yg dlm dnia ni nk saket,,,
lgy2 saket yg mner 1 ary nnty aq akn hilang 1 bnde yg sumer pompuan laen ader....
x dew sper pown yg leyh trime ble org laen da boleh mramal kmatian dye???
knaper???
knaper??
yes!!!!!!!!!!!!!! kjnaper???
knaper msty aq yg saket....
kalau lah aq taw the answer..
kalau lah....
dye taw x??
yg sumer trjadi ble aq brada di ats,,
taw x cmner saketnyer bler kter trpkse lpekan ap yg kter sker??
ble kter kne elakkn dry kiter dry wt bnd 2...
aq da hlang dry aq taw x...
aq dlu akti sngt2...
aq maen bola baling..
tringt sweet mmries kt srwak,,,
tp sumer 2 cmer tnggal mmries ajer..
there is no more sport 4 me,,
4 ever n ever,,,,..
aq da ilang my life,,
my future....
my sunshine...
taw ap yg aq rse ble tgk owng laen boleh besukan??/
aq rse x GUNA sngt!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
taw  x knaper...
sbb dlu itulah aq,,,
hdup aq lbih bnyk dgn bola n padang...
lbih bnyk di luar rumah....
lbih bnyk dlm hutan....
i'm outdoor gurlz!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
kaw rser aq x nk ke balik sumer 2???
klaw aq leyh ptah alek wktu,,
aq akn ptah alek...
aq akn jd mcmn ap yg aq impikn..
n mybe..
skang ni aq da bersme ngan mira, kila n nina,,,
aq leyh futher sdy dlm course skan,,
or spm aq x lingkup..
hnye sbb aq amek spm kt ats ktil kt hosp?????
WHAT THE HELL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
WHAT THE FUCK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
maaf law sye berksar...


p/s: x adew sper yg mnta utk jdy sprti aq k..
nobody..
please jgn ckp cm2....
aty aq saket sgt,,
lbeyh saket dry aq tjatuh k,,,,,

ntah nper ntah!!!!

ari n i tetiber ajer aq nk mnulis...
umm x taw ap yg aq rser skang ni,,,
weell aq kn x pnah ader diari..
ini ae satu2x nyer tmpt ntok aq mnulis...
aq sdeyh kowt.,.
aq trpndng jri aq,,,
aq saket..
jari aq da hmpir x dew klit..
mgglupas trok..
law orng tgk..
msty jjik ngan aq,,
kuku aq smkin meruncing,,,
jari aq skit ngt2x,.,,
aq nk ngis,,,
tp aq x mo roomate n housemate aq rsau ngan keadaan aq nieyh...
kdang2 aq malu bler,,,
aq x leyh nk bsuh pnggan,,
ea ae,,
kte da mkn,,
pas2 owng laen lak yg kne bsuhkn pnggan ketr...
aq mlu sngt2x..
tp doktor ktyer aq eletgik ngan sabun,,,
aq nk tngn aq alek,,,.
mcm aner aq nk bdpan ngan owng laen,,
aq malu,,
rmai yg sngke aq ni sombong,,
tp aq bkn sombong,,
aq malu dgn keadaan diri aq nieyh.,..
aq x smpurne cam orang laen,,
aq sering dpertikaikn,,
kdang2 mak aq pown smer..
sumer x ham aq..
umm mybe ini feeling aq ajer kowt..
sper agy yg leyh fham sesoramng 2 law bkn mama dye sndry en,,
mama,,
sory,,, along miss u,,
bler ae agknyer aq nieyh leyh shat kn,,
aq tringin nk jdi cm orang laen,,
aq tringin ke padang semula,,
maen lgy,,
tp aq takowt aq x mmpu,,
aq mmpu kjer..
azam aq nk maen kt pdang thun ni,,
tp mcm aner bler x smpai half game aq collapse agy,,
aq sdeyh,,
aq nk ulang kjayaan aq dlu...
law dlu aq leyh maen ntok ngru slangor,,
maen smpai jdy penjring terbnyak bola baling,,
knper skang aq da xleyh..
aq taw rmai yg mmndang aq tn sblah mter..
mreka anggap aq x brgune..
ya!!!!
mmg aq x brgune!!!!
aq da x mmpu lagy...
aq bkn aq yg dlu.,..
aq bnci dgn nme pyka,,. riena,,,
aq mhu anis,,,
anis yg lincah,, aktif lagy...
bola adlh tman aq...
aq tydo dgn bola,,
teringt mser ader kt srawak,,
playing 4 national,,,
1 of my sweet memories,,
arghhh!!!
everything was change,...
i miss it..
so much,,,

alamak!!!!! x leyh tydo,,,

huhu,,
aq x taw ae nper ngan aqmlm ni,,
x leyh nk tydo,,
mybe aq tlmpau bnyk pk psal aq ngan cyg aq kowt,,,
ea ae,,, rlationship ktowng en,,,
but 1 thing mlm ni tdy aq ader bcer novel,,
n its make me rmember something about my ex,,,,
umm mser 2 aq duk kt pom1.. ala bebudk agy en,,,
bwu 13,,
n aq taw mser 2 aq da gtal nk syg kt a boy ni,,,
yeah,,,
first skali aq smbang ngan dye mser 2 orentasi,,,
ktowng kne amek singature all fcy ae en,,,
umm so nk d jdikn cter aq amek sign ntok sumer fc gurlz n dye amek sign ntok sumer fc boyz,,
haha,,
2 ae pmulaanktowng,,,
after that ktowng jdy mkn rpat,,
tp x declacare ag,,,
rmai yg da ckpktowang da cple..
tp lom agy sbnrnyer,,
haha,,,
nk d jdikan cter aq ader sowng akak angkt,,,
so sllunyer law aq nk jmp dye kt skolah,,
aq msty ajk akak ni tmn kn aq,,,
so ktowng be3 da jdy rpat,,
dye pown pnggil akak aq akak..
humm nice en,,
biase ae,,
law duk 0stel aner der enpon en,,,
so hnyer srat n bku ajer ae modal ktowng nk bhubung,,
ary2 msty ader srat..
n aq still engt cmner tlisan dye k,,,
senget,, hakhak,,
n aq taw yg dye mmg ader maen bku ngan akak aq 2...
but as sster ae en,,,
n then blerdaa kcoh 1 ostel yg dye maen bku ngan akak aq tuh,,
downg quit...
dye promise kt aq da x nk daa,,
akak aq pown,,,
dye kter dyte syg kt aq,,
x mo tgk aq sdeyh2 ag,,
ea ae..
aq tspit kowt mser 2...
antre akak n dye,,
aq taw law downg btol da ad pper..
aq snggup bralah,,,
sbb aq syg kt downg..
sngt2..
ummm tp x lmer pas2 something happen,,,
ader 1 akak ni,,
1 klass ngan dye,,,
mybe akak2 x taw prob ktowng,,
dye bg 1 bku kt aq..
dye soh aq bgy kt dak llaki 2...
kter nyer dry akak aq,,
n aq mmey trkjut,,
ea ae,,
kn downg da jnji no more boom between them,,,
tp aq kter uk,,
t anis bgy k,,,,
ary 2 jmaat,,
aq engt agy..
coz dye j jnji nk antr aq g kt bus,,,,
so mse tgh ary sblom g klass,,
ea ae aq pom 1,, dye lak pom2..
ktowng blaja tyme ptg,,,
akak aq 2 pom3..
pgy,, jdi tyme 2 akak aq da alek daa,,
uk bbalik kter k,,,,
aq duk kt klass aq,,,
aq kliru,,
cewahhh!!! kcik agy,,,
umm aq bcer bku 2,,
ap ajer yg downg sembang..
sumer aq bcer....
aq sdeyh,,
akak aq syg dye,, n dye pown,,,
mksud nyer downg typu kt aq,,,\
dlm bku 2 pown ader tlis,,
jgn smpai aq taw,,,,
knper!!!! typu!!! aq!!!!
aq diam,,
bku 2 aq smpan,,
aq ngis,,,
aq x msuk klass,,
'kli prtme aq bcinte,,
n dye hncurkn kprcyaan aq.. argghh!!!!
setan!!!!
aq tgu smpai ptg,,
n ptg 2 dye antr aq g kt bas,,
bnyk sngt dye ckp ngan aq,,,
jgn lper mcj n bagai ae,,
aq dgrkn ajer,,
smntre aq tgu bas,,
aq tnyer dye..
"abg syg kt kak bella ker??"
dye kter x?? nper anis tnyer cm2??
aq ckp nothing,,but aq ngis,,
aq mmey syg kt dye sngt,,
dye tnyer nper aq ngis,,,
aq diam ajer...
smpai aq naik bas n smpai kt umah,,
mser ary ahad,,
akak yg bgy bku kt aq 2 kol,,
dye tnyer,,
aq bg x bku 2 kt dak 2..
aq kter mmey nk bgy,,
tp x smpat.. t aq bgy ae,,
so esok nyer aq ajk ae abg ngan akak aq 2 jmp kt kepci,,,
huhu...
aq taw downg tkjut,,
sbb aq x inpom pon yg ajk dua2 skali,,
tp x per..
smue nyer cm besa,,
downg still agy nk typu aq,,
mser aq tnyer,,
ap orsaan downg law kner typu,,
downg kter msty ae sdeyh,,
agy2 ngan owng yg downg prcye,,,,
aq tnyer dowang ader typu kt aq x,,
downg kter x adew,,
then aq kuar kn bku 2 n aq tnyer ni aper??
aq x mrah,,
downg diam ajer,,
mser 2 bwu downg ngaku,,,
tp downg x taw nk g taw cmner kt aq,,
agy dak boy 2...
dier dyam ajer..
ok,,
aq kter ckup..
aq x ksah law downg bcnta,,
tp jgn typu aq,,
slami ni ap yg budak laen ckp psl dye,,
aq accept,,
dye playboy,, bnyk pompuan,,
x pew,, aq timer,,
bler dye x shat aq crik ubat,,
bler akak aq saket,,
aq snggu jge dye kt blik dye..
1 mlm aq x tydo,,
n ini blsan downg kt aq,,
sbuah pnipuan,,
owng g aq syg typu aq..
aq x pnah syg kt ownglaen..
even prents aq.. cmner aq syg kt downg aww..
pergghh!!!
memey dasyat ae,, kn...
sjak dryu 2 aq x pnah prcye lurfe 2 aper...
but when aq da taw aq saket,,
n now aq da owng yg syg kt aq,,
aq crik dye alek,,
n nk taw x??
dye x engt pown aq ni sper,,'kak bella 2 sper,,
dye da brsme ngan owng laen,,
aq engt dye eppy,,
tp ntah ae,,,
mybe ni bnefit aq blah dry idop dye kowt,,
aq x lgy rser sket aty,,
luke aty aq semboh daa,,
n law kowng nk taw,,
pas aq mam kepci ngan downg 2..
bkak skolah aq tros pndah g kt skolah lae,
aq taw dye pown pndah skul laen,,
n akak aq pown da pndah ikot prent dye,,
\till now aq x taw aner akak aq 2..
\n dye..
pas aq jmp dye ary 2,,
aq nekad da x mo jmp dye,,
ckup ae skali ahje,,,
haha,,
klaka enn,
tp kowng taw x aq ngah nagis ni,,
aq x leyh lupe ap dye wt kt aq,,
ap dye ckp kt aq..
yeah,,
nobody can 4get their first lurfe en..
aq pown,,,
ntah ae...
haha..
mter yg x mo tlelepa.. huhu..
bye.. daa,,yg pnting aq da aizal,,,
4 ever in lurfe.....

on my upsi bebeyh,,!!!!

ary ni da nk dkt 3 mnggu da aq kt upsi,,,
wahhh!!!1
ader rser bngge gler...
ea ae bler tringt yg aq akn jdik cikgu,,, besh nyer!!!!
trcpai hjat mama ngan abah aq,,, hhhaaaa,,
tp ader sket rser sdeyh kot bler yringt kt nana, teha,, zati,, kamek ,, stira,, dilla,,,
n yg laen gak,,
mmb2 ipb...
adus!!!!!
kowng cmner..
aq wndu gler...
kt sni best kot..
ea ae ader wifi,,
food murah sket..
x pkai blnje yg bynyk sngt kot..
yg pntng ni ae cite2 aq,,,
yH!!! ATER NK JDIK forensik yg x jdik 2 kan,,
hahah..
x lyk kot..
brangn psungguh,,
kt sni x dew hostel..
yg ader rmah ajer....
1 rumah ader 3 blik n 1 blik 2 orang,,
no more doble dacker..
hahah..
x dew prob pnas agy k,,
huhu..
yg laen smer ajer kot,,
haaaa!!!!
ader 1 ag yg laen,.,,
kt sni leyh msk nasik ngan air sndry,,,
konon ajer ae.. koz sllunyer ktorang duk mask lauk skali,,
tp bkn aq ae yg msak,,
sumer housemate aq yg msk..
kdang2 downg msk cekodok, lempeng, kdang nsik lmak,, tp ary 2 downg msak tomyam,,,
perghhh!!!!!
x than,, sdap kowt...
lper lak aq nk ckp,,,,,
aq ni adek,,
haha,, nk taw x nper??
sbb aq sorng ajer dak dip kt umah aq,,
yg laen sumer dak degree,,,
wahh!!! mnje nyere...
 umm k ae bye,,
nk g klass..
syg kt kowng sum er....

bye bye...

ummm sok aq da nk g,,
umm msty rmai yg tnyer aq nk g aner en,,
umm sok aq nk g UPSI,,,,
aq da da dpt stdy kt sner....
ummm aty aq????
x taw ae nk ckp cmner...
tp,,,
brat kpd x mo pegyt kowt,,
umm memey ae,,,
skang ni spe ajer yg ngah ader wet en,,,
sumer ngah sengkek..
aq pown bru ajer start keje,,,
khamis td at speedmart,,,
da nk kne benti,,
aq tgk mker mnger aq pon aq da nk naek seram awww,,,
slamt dye x bham kt aq...
tp x pe,,,
dye memahmi k,,
aq da start sonok daa ngan mmb aq,,,
wahh!!!!
sdeyh nye nk tnggal kn kowng,,,
umm,,
any way,,,
hope pasni jln hdup aq akn ag mudah,,,,
no more tears k....
aq akn buktikn yg plihan aq ni btol... pergghh...
ayt..
x than kowt.. hakhak......

aq sdeyh,,,

kadang2 aq cmbru tgk mmb2 aq,,
downg epi ngan pamily downg,,,
tp aquh,,,
lgy2 skang,,
trser cm di ank tirikn,,
abah,,,
sentiaser bz  ngan keje,,
aq cian ngan dye,,
tp...
as husband dye kne pk gak ap yg wife dye rse,,,
whatever is it,,
aq taw dye cri wet ntok ktowng..
ya ae agy2 skang ni mama da x kejer..
sgalenyer trgntung pder bhu abh,,,
mama lak,,,
aq taw dye tension ngan behavior ktong adk brdik ngan abah,,
tp aq plik,,
sptt nyer as wife,,
dye yg lgy fhm psal abh,,
ni x..
stakt ap yg aq tgk,,
dye mcm x brsyukur ngan ap yg abh daa bg,,
pnah skali gas ngan beras daa abis..
dye soh abh bli..
so abh bli ae en..
but thrn,,
dye mara2,,
kte nyer beras x cukup..
knape bli yg kecik ajer..
pnah x dye pk 2 ajer wet yg abah ade smentre nk tgu abh gji lg skali,,
natah ae mama,,,
angah,,
kbnlkngn ni,,
aq slalu dngr mama n abah marah2 kt dye,,
sbb dye kwn ngan dak tomboy,,
x taw ae pengkid or x en,, x brani nk ckp ppe pown,,
tp yg psty sjak dye kwn ngan dak 2 dye da brubah,,,
pnas bran semacm,,,
ntah ae,,,
yg penting sbnrnyer aq nk cter psl aty aq yg sdeyh gler skang,,
psl adk2 aq yg laen,,
skang ni cm da x bnyk prob sngt,,
mybe sbb downg kecik ag kowt..
hummm//
knaper aq sdeyh??????????????????//
knaper ea!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
aq pown x pham,,
smder mmg btol aq d ank tri en or just aq cmburu,,,
ntah ae..
mama...
2 ae prob nyer,,
dye mcm mara kt aq..
x taw nper..
yg aq prsan,,
sjak ader bf adik aq...
mama cm lbeyh kn boy 2 dry aq..
aq sdeyh sngt,,
ap aq wt sumer slah,,
tp law bnd yg smer boy 2 buat,,
mama x mrah pown..
contoh nyer en..
baru2 ni aq buang fon adik aq..
smpai pecah ae gak,,
yg plik mama m,ara dye cme skjap ajer,,
ap pas2 mama mara kt aq plak..
pdhal mama n abh da nk amik pown fon 2..
dlu fon aq pown pnah abh pcahkn gak,,,
smpai da x leyh nk elok daa,,
tp xdw sper pown yg pjuk kt aq..
tp ni mama siap pjuk ag dye,,,
ary 2 boy adik aq tuh pown pnah gak buang fon adik aq,,
then siap dpt plempang percume ag,,
tp mama x mrh pown kt dak boy 2..
aq plik sngt2..
umm ntah ae,,
skang cuber ckp ngan aq..
aq ni cmburu ker..
mybe ye,,
gler ker x jeles,,
mama aq tuh,,
smpai aq trpk,,
slme mama aq saket,,
aq yg jge dye,,
bkn dak boy 2..
bkn aq nk ungkit,,
tp aq kcewa,,
ye..
aq taw mama ag kecewa ntok aq..
aq bkn ank yg baek,.
aq dak pusat pemulihan,,
bkas dak pusat...
tp mama taw x ..
krne aq dok kt sne ae,,
aq jd baek cmni,,
mama slalu mara ble aq x dew kt umah,,
mama taw x knaper aq x leyh nk duk kt umah,,
sbb aq x mo gado2 ngan mama..
dosa aq da bnyk sngt daa,,
aq taw mara mama bersebb,,
sb  aq x tlong dye wt keje kt umah,,
cmner aq nk wt..
mama lper ker ank mama ni daa cct,,
sejak aq d sahkn ader ktumbuhan pyudara.,,,
aq lmah sngt..
trlampau lmah,,
aq sllu x lrat,,
tp aq x nk tnjuk kt mama..
aq x nk mama rsaw psl aq yg daa x bper pnting wt mama ni,,
aq sbleyh nyer da x nk sshakn mama ngan abah,,
sbb aq syg kt mama ngan abah,,
ssh pyah downg bsarkn aq slamer ni,,
sdeyh nyer aq,,
skang ni mama da x nk lyn aq ajer..
aq nk mama aq..
aq x nk owng laen,,
aq nkm owng yg syg kt aq sllu ader ntok aq..
aq nk mama, abah n aizal,,
slalu ngan aq..
smpai bler..
slagy aq msih bernas..
bru2 ni aq dpt rser saket aq yg ader kt left side,,
mcm da tsrer kt right side palk,,
aq bgtaw kt mama,,
aq mntk mama tlong uritkn blakng aq.,,
sbb skit sngt..
smpai aq daa x leyh nk than,,
tp mama urut kjap ajer,,
mama mrah,,
ckp aq ngade2,,
x mo nk mam ubat,,
mama..
alonx bkn x nk mkn ubt,,
tp alonx daa x llu nk mkn ubt 2 daa,,
ble alonx mam ubt 2,,
t alonx pnin sngt,,
cm nk munth,,,
ummm.,
aq sdeyh ble aq tgk mama tmn adik aq ngan boy dye kt living room umah aq,,
aq kluar blik,,
nk mnje ngan mak aq,,
aq bring kt rbe mak aq..
tp mama kter,,
daa g ae msuk blik,,
mama halau aq..
sdeyh nyer ae,,,
aq daa cber jdi yg pling baek ntok mama n abah,,
tp aq daa x mmpu,,
aq da pnah hilng downg dlu,,
n aq x mo ilang downg ag.,,
prnah ank owng laen dating bwk mama n aabh downg,,
ssah nk jm kn,,
tp aq x,,'
sbuln msty ader aq bwk mama kuar ngan aq n aizal,,,
family aizal pown x pnah kuar ngan ktowng aww..
ap lgy aq kne wt ntok crik alek kpercyaan mama n abh,,
aq x nk jdi ank derhake.,.
coz aq da tgk cntoh yg dkat ader kt dpn mate aq,,
aq x nk,,
law aq nk cter,,
smpai bler2 pown x kn abis cter aq nieyh,,
msty ader yg kesian kn,,
JGN KESIAN KT AQ!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1
aq x nk,,
aq cme nk mntk doa ajer...
spye aq shat,,
jd aq leyh jd ank yg mcm dlu,,
mmpu wt kej kt umah,,
jd mama n abah da x mara2 kt aq..
coz,,
aq x nk jdi ank derhakae..
aq takowt aq x smpt daa,,,,